People may wish to say that the thing that is in conflict with my creativity is not Buddhism - that's fine.

There's a possible qualification I can make here about a non-pantheist god that is in some way tenable, and that is the idea of a god that has in some way discharged the universe from its own substance (I associate this with the word 'tzimtzum'), possibly even by a form of suicide - a suicide that might have been the Big Bang.

I went for a walk in the rain. Recently, whenever it rains, I feel like I want to go for a walk.

I grew up with tarot cards and the reading of tea leaves.

The quality of that 'who I am', is what I hope comes out in the writing.

I understand that words can mean different things to different people, and, further, that people can have different relationships with complex abstract entities such as Buddhism. To me, anyway, the entity in my life that conflicts with my creativity is Buddhism.

I grew up in North Devon, by the sea, and feel a special affinity for the landscape there, despite a lack of actual ancestry.