It's not the loving that hurts this girl; it's the understanding of it for what it is, that it will never be returned in the same way, that threatens to destroy her. But to unload the words - "I love you" - on an innocent party who didn't ask for it, to reach across the dark space and touch him - it's like the world she knows could end if she dared speak these words, dared make such a move.
Rachel CohnI mean, like most guys, you carry around this girl in your head, who is exactly who you want her to be. The person you think you will love the most. And every girl you are with gets measured against this girl in your head.
Rachel CohnWhat Iโm sorry about is not being a tipsy idiot when you found me. Iโm sorry about that, obviously, but more sorry that my stupidity caused us to lose a great opportunity. I donโt imagine you would have met me and fallen crazy in love with me, but I would like to think that if youโd had a chance to meet me under different circumstances, something just as nice could have happened. We could have become friends.
Rachel CohnI donโt know what boldness came over me, but the resolute heaviness of Dashโs demeanor threatened to crush my soul. My pinky finger crept over and nestled against his, for comfort. Like a magnet, his pinky finger latched onto and intertwined with mine. I like magnets a whole lot.
Rachel CohnThere was no word in the dictionary adequate to describe the sensation other than sensational.
Rachel CohnIn a field, I am the absence of field. In a crowd, I am the absence of crowd. In a dream, I am the absence of dream. But I don't want to live as an absence. I move to keep things whole. Because sometimes I feel drunk on positivity. Sometimes I feel amazement at the tangle of words and lives, and I want to be a part of that tangle.
Rachel Cohn