If this had ever happened before, it couldn't be happening now. That's what they mean by 'once in a lifetime'.

Most aspects of my training didn’t agree with me. There wasn’t as much bossing around as I’d hoped for, and there was way too much following orders.

Hey." Tod squeezed my hand to draw me out of my thoughts. "I think death looks good on you.

Did you think you could dump me, and I'd bounce back to her and miraculously be happy? I'm not a Ping-Pong ball. You can't just swat me back and forth and expect me to be content wherever I land. If Tod dumped you tomorrow, would you come back to me?

He’s not like you, Tod. Aside from a couple of notable exceptions, you tend to think things through, but Nash is ruled by his heart—

Oh fine. I'll play nice with the pretty people.

I wanted more firsts with Tod. But all I had left was a handful of lasts.