Weren't you always distracted by expectation, as if every event announced a beloved? (Where can you find a place to keep her, with all the huge strange thoughts inside you going and coming and often staying all night.).
Rainer Maria RilkeAnd you suddenly know: It was here! You pull yourself together, and there stands an irrevocable year of anguish and vision and prayer.
Rainer Maria RilkeLove and death are the great gifts that are given to us; mostly they are passed on unopened.
Rainer Maria Rilke