It doesn't matter how much you want. What really matters is how much you want it.
Patience expands your options. If you insist on immediate gratification, your choices are severely limited.
You are what you are most profoundly thankful for, and what you love.
If you so choose, the challenges can make you stronger. If you so choose, the disappointments can make you more determined.
Stop needing and start having. Stop wanting and start being.
You've done it before and you can do it now. See the positive possibilities. Redirect the substantial energy of your frustration and turn it into positive, effective, unstoppable determination.