If you think you are free, there is no escape possible.
A feeling of aversion or attachment toward something is your clue that there's work to be done.
In meditation we can watch the itch instead of scratching it.
The God within is your Spiritual Heart. Your Soul. And in that individual Soul, rests God- rests the One. Go into your soul and your heart-space which can be Awareness, Love, Compassion, etc…and just BE your heart-space. BE your Soul so that you can LOVE unconditionally.
It's all real and it's all illusory: that's Awareness!
Accidents are just from where you're looking; to the ego, it looks like it's miracles and accidents.