I don't know. I just feel stuck, like I'm afraid to take any steps, in case they're the wrong ones.

For me one of the most important things is not feeling like you have to protect yourself if you're with a real friend.

She's called the secretary, but as far as I can tell she basically runs the school.

Sometimes you never feel meaner than the moment you stop being mean. It's like how turning on a light makes you realize how dark the room had gotten. And the way you usually act, the things you would have normally done, are like these ghosts that everyone can see but pretends not to.

Sometimes you never feel meaner than the moment you stop being mean.

I don't know. I just feel stuck, like I'm afraid to take any steps, in case they're the wrong ones.

I'm an old man, and she's gone now. So don't worry, okay?