But on the other hand, I think as an actor, you tend to want to look at the darker parts of your psyche.

Filmmaking in general is just really where I'm putting all of my energy.

And I think because there is an essence of me that cares about other people and what other people think then that then makes me seem very sweet and polite.

I've grown so much as a person through playing Gabrielle, much less living in New Zealand and being with all of these people that I can't imagine my life being any different.

But on the other hand, I think as an actor, you tend to want to look at the darker parts of your psyche.

I think you have to have different tools for each job - you know producer is very different from a director and very different from an actor.

All the pictures in magazines and all of that is fun but in the end it's all about your soul and who you are and have you connected with the people.