I think I would envy me too, if I didn't know me better.

I take comfort in knowing that it was the shepherds to whom the angels appeared when they announced Christ's birth. Invariably throughout the course of history, God has appeared to people on the fringes. It's nice to find theological justification for your quirks.

If you live real good, I can guarantee you are gonna get beat up real bad!

You are not alone in the world. You are part of an ensemble.

I believe what I believe is what makes me what I am

The best that can happen is that someone can catch a glimpse of the glory you're hinting at.

It's a cultural disability in America that we worship pleasure, leisure, and affluence. I think the church is doubly damned when they use Jesus as a vehicle for achieving all of that. Like, if you give a tithe, He'll make you rich. Why? Are you hacking Him off or something? If you give a tithe, you get rid of ten percent of the root of all evil. You should be giving ninety percent. Cause God can handle money better than we can.