I can never accomplish what I want - only what I would have wanted had I thought of it beforehand.

Don't 'discover' a subject of any kind.

I want painting to be difficult to do.

In a successful painting everything is integral - all the parts belong to the whole. If you remove an aspect or element you are removing its wholeness.

My freedom consists in my moving about within the narrow frame that I have assigned myself for each one of my undertakings.

Somehow don't be bored, but if you must, use it in action. Use its destructive potential.

Use and respond to the initial fresh qualities but consider them absolutely expendable.