You surrender to love; you do not accomplish love by willpower.
Maturity is the ability to joyfully live in an imperfect world.
You create your response to reality, and that response, for all practical purposes, is your reality.
You cannot heal what you cannot acknowledge.
The real spiritual journey is work. You can make a naรฏve assertion that you trust in Jesus, but until it is tested a good, oh, 200 times, I doubt very much that it's true.
Worship of Jesus is rather harmless and risk-free; actually following Jesus changes everything.