You never know God is all you need until God is all you have.
If you don't know how to do it, get around someone else who does.
Now God has never shouted out to me. I've never heard God speak audibly. He doesn't have to.
You've got a lot to look forward to in Heaven. Compared to what's in store for you in Heaven, your current pain and problems are petty.
I believe what Irenaeus said - the glory of God is a human being fully alive.
You didn't create yourself, so there is no way you can tell yourself what you were created for.