So far from engaging in a war to perpetuate slavery, I am rejoiced that slavery is abolished.
The biggest mistake of my life was taking a military education.
With all my devotion to the Union, and the feeling of loyalty and duty of an American citizen, I have not been able to make up my mind to raise my hand against my relative, my children, my home. I have, therefore, resigned my commission in the Army.
I will attack no matter what and win the war!
My heart bleeds at the death of every one of our gallant men.
What a cruel thing is war: to separate and destroy families and friends, and mar the purest joys and happiness God has granted us in this world; to fill our hearts with hatred instead of love for our neighbors, and to devastate the fair face of this beautiful world.