I realize I will always be the poster child for police brutality, but I can try to use that as a positive force for healing and restraint.

I sometimes feel like I'm caught in a vise. Some people feel like I'm some kind of hero. Others hate me.

Why can't we all just get along?

What I've learned to do is arrest my addiction - arrest it myself, so I don't get arrested.

Over the years, a lot of rappers - Lil' Wayne, Ice Cube - have used my name in their songs. I'm a real touchstone of history.

People look at me like I should have been like Malcolm X or Martin Luther King or Rosa Parks. I should have seen life like that and stay out of trouble, and don't do this and don't do that. But it's hard to live up to some people's expectations.

As far as having peace within myself, the one way I can do that is forgiving the people who have done wrong to me. It causes more stress to build up anger. Peace is more productive.