You take the risk of being rejected. If you have pretentions to be an artist of any kind, you have to take the risk of people rejecting you and thinking you're an arsehole.
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way.
I'm in competition with myself and I'm losing.
ashes or diamonds foe or friend we're all equal in the end
You take the risk of being rejected.
When you've done something, certainly if you create a piece of music, you then hear it with fresh ears when you play it for somebody else.