If I acknowledge my dependency, I do so because for me it is a means of signifying my demand: in the realm of love, futility is not a "weakness" or an "absurdity": it is a strong sign: the more futile, the more it signifies and the more it asserts itself as strength.)
Roland BarthesThus every writer's motto reads: mad I cannot be, sane I do not deign to be, neurotic I am.
Roland Barthes