Even though you're not equipped, keep searching: equipment isn't necessary on the way to the Lord.
We should ask God to help us toward manners. Inner gifts do not find their way to creatures without just respect.
If all you can do is crawl, start crawling.
Seek the wisdom that will untie your knot. Seek the path that demands your whole being.
Pain is a treasure, for it contains mercies.
Be full of sorrow, that you may become hill of joy; weep, that you may break into laughter.