Without love, all worship is a burden, all dancing is a chore, all music is mere noise.
Don't turn away. Keep your gaze on the bandaged place. That's where the light enters you.
It may be that the satisfaction I need depends on my going away, so that when I've gone and come back, I'll find it at home.
Stay with friends who support you in these. Talk with them about sacred texts, and how you are doing, and how they are doing, and keep your practices together.
For those who realize that everything is from God, everything is the same.
What you're seeking is seeking you.