It takes a long time to write a book. I'm not going to spend that much time trying to deliver a message. The reason I do it is because I want to understand something myself. It's not a delivery device, it's an inquiry device. Didactic fiction to my mind never works. It backfires.

An unfinished book. left unattended, turns feral, and she would need all her focus, will and ruthless determination to tame it again.

My mind is like a gyre and odd juxtapositions happen.

No matter how much bullying they inflict on my body, as long as I have this hope, I can endure any pain.

When Im writing a novel, which is what I like to write, I get up early, sit zazen, make a pot of green tea. I wear wrist cuffs to keep my wrists warm and minimize irritation from extended contact with the surface of my desk. I sit down and write.

But in the time it takes to say now, now is already over. It's already then.

The relationship between reader and writer is reciprocal in a way. We co-create each other. We are constantly emerging out of the relationship we have with others.