It's just so out of control. Life, I mean. The way it flies off in all these different directions without your permission.
Sara ZarrIt came down to the smallest things, really, that a person could do to say Iโm sorry, to say itโs okay, to say I forgive you. The tiniest of declarations that built, one on top of the other, until there was something solid beneath your feet. And thenโฆ and then. Who knew?
Sara ZarrI tried his cell over and over but he never answered. Then Iโd call just to hear his voice on the outgoing message, until eventually that was gone too.
Sara ZarrIt's not words, so much, just my mind going blank and thoughts reaching up up up, me wishing I could climb through the ceiling and over the stars until I can find God, really see God, and know once and for all that everything I've believed my whole life is true, and real. Or, not even everything. Not even half. Just the part about someone or something bigger than us who doesn't lose track. I want to believe the stories, that there really is someone who would search the whole mountainside just to find that one lost thing that he loves, and bring it home.
Sara Zarr