I'd been through so much, falling short again and again, and only recently had found a place where who I was, right now, was enough.
Sarah DessenIt sounded stupid, but of course everything does when you're just getting the bare bones facts, only the basics.
Sarah DessenWe'd start slow, the way we always did, because the run, and the game, could go on for a while. Maybe even forever. That was the thing. You just never knew. Forever was so many different things. It was always changing, it was what everything was really all about. It was twenty minutes, or a hundred years, or just this instant, or any instant I wished would last and last. But there was only one truth about forever that really mattered, and that was this: it was happening. Right then, as I ran with Wes into that bright sun, and every moment afterwards. Look, there. Now. Now. Now.
Sarah Dessen"It's gonna be okay," I said. It was the first time in a long time that I believed it. "It will."
Sarah DessenMaybe it was just part of growing up with someone. Once you have a rhythm and stay with it long enough, it's not hard to find again.
Sarah DessenTimes like this it did seem real I was leaving, and even more that my family, and this life, would go on without me. And again I felt that emptiness rise up, but pushed it away. Still, I lingered there, in the doorway, memorizing the noise. The moment. Tucking it away out of sight, to be remembered when I needed it most.
Sarah Dessen