To create something beautiful about despair or out of a feeling of despair is for me the most hopeful life affirming thing a person can do

I am the beast at the end of the rope.

You get mixed messages because I have mixed feelings.

the chicken's still dancing the chicken won't stop

There is an objective reality in which my body and mind are one. But I am not here and never have been.

No one survives life.

You’ll be all right. You’re strong. I know you’ll be okay because I like you and you can’t like someone who doesn’t like themself. The people I fear for are the ones who I don’t like because they hate themselves so much they won’t let anyone else like them either. But I do like you. I’ll miss you. And I know you’ll be okay.