This is how most people live: alive, but not conscious; conscious but not aware; aware, but intermittently.
Sebastian FaulksI'd never chosen to be alone, but that was the way things had turned out, and I'd grown used to it.
Sebastian FaulksThis intimacy is not necessary; no one is compelling me to open my inmost self and lay it naked, undefended, against that of another โ merely for the joy of the communion.
Sebastian FaulksDepression - that limp word for the storm of black panic and half-demented malfunction - had over the years worked itself out in Charlotte's life in a curious pattern. Its onset was often imperceptible: like an assiduous housekeeper locking up a rambling mansion, it noiselessly went about and turned off, one by one, the mind's thousand small accesses to pleasure.
Sebastian Faulks