I'm afraid of happy people. They're chemically unbalanced.
I feel the same way I did when I was in school. I'm having the same insecurities.
Ps. I am pretty certain Beyonce doesn't need you fighting any battles on her account. Seems like she's got everything covered perfectly well on her own.
I say embrace the total geek in yourself and just enjoy it. Life is too short to be cool.
I don't find any kind of tension very productive, I find it destructive, actually.
I think women in pop have been declawed and defanged, and they're just meant to look pretty and sing pretty.