I think it backfired. It wasn't what I expected, it was difficult. I didn't expect them to throw somany mind games into it. I didn't expect to be so emotional, but I asked for it really. I'ma glutton for punishment.

I had a lot of friends that were extremely hedonistic, extremely debauched, swapping partners etc.

I think it backfired. It wasn't what I expected, it was difficult. I didn't expect them to throw somany mind games into it. I didn't expect to be so emotional, but I asked for it really. I'ma glutton for punishment.

The drugs were the most important thing to me.

The amount of painkillers I was given. Every time I had a pain in my leg I got used to numbing it out.