It’s like when you’re excited about a girl and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. And other times you see the same couple, and they make you so mad. And all you want is to feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then it means you’re happy, too.

Regardless, I decided to never take LSD again.

I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for thousands of years. Or just not exist.

You get the right collection of people together and you get the atmosphere together that it is very free where there is no judgment. If you create an atmosphere that is very open you steer the ship.

More like the movie where the guy meets a smart girl who wears a lot of sweaters and drinks cocoa. They talk about books and issues and kiss in the rain.

But right now I’m here with you. And I want to know where you are, what you need, and what you want to do.

I know that things get worse before they get better because that’s what my psychiatrist says, but this is a worse that feels too big.