You can't just say there is a God because well, the world is beautiful. You have to account for bone cancer in children. You have to account for the fact that almost all animals in the wild live under stress with not enough to eat and will die violent and bloody deaths. There is not any way that you can just choose the nice bits and say that means there is a God and ignore the true fact of what nature is.

Coming out as gay was an easy enough matter for me, since I worked in a profession where being gay had a long history of being accepted.

If there were a God he would want us to be better spirited than to take his word for everything.

The Gay News critic wrote that I 'carried the lilt of the Irish without the brogue'.

[...] I suppose this was the first time I had ever felt an urge not to be. Never an urge to die, far less an urge to put an end to myself - simply an urge not to be. This disgusting, hostile and unlovely world was not made for me, nor I for it. It was alien to me and I to it.

And of course you are mad, if by a madman we mean a mind that questions and rejects every civilized norm.

As I say I don't want to kill myself, I just wouldn't mind dying.