I was not allowed to think of him. That was something I tried to be very strict about. Of course I slipped; I was only human. But I was getting better, and so the pain was something I could avoid for days at a time now. The trade-off was the never-ending numbness. Between pain and nothing, I'd chosen nothing.
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Stephenie MeyerEight full lives,โ I whispered against his jaw, my voice breaking. โEight full lives and I never found anyone I would stay on a planet for, anyone I would follow when they left. I never found a partner. Why now? Why you? You're not of my species. How can you be my partner?โ โIt's a strange universe,โ he murmured. โIt's not fair,โ I complained, echoing Sunny's words. It wasn't fair. How could I find this, find loveโnow, in this eleventh hourโand have to leave it? Was it fair that my soul and body couldn't reconcile? Was it fair that I had to love Melanie, too?
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