Emptiness and boredom: what a complete understatement. What I felt was complete desolation. Desolation, despair and boredom.
Susanna KaysenBut when they were done, I wondered if there would be a next time. I felt good. I wasnโt dead, yet something was dead. Perhaps Iโd managed my peculiar objective of partial suicide. I was lighter, airier than Iโd been in years.
Susanna KaysenTell me that you donโt take that blade and drag it across your skin and pray for the courage to press down.
Susanna Kaysen