I am made, crudely, for success.
Compared with me, a tree is immortal.
All I want is blackness. Blackness and silence.
The one thing I was good at was winning scholarships and prizes, and that era was coming to an end.
If only a group of people were more important to me than the idea of a Novel, I might begin a novel.
... stop trying to get me to write about 'decent courageous people' -- read the Ladies' Home Journal for those! ... I believe in going through and facing the worst, not hiding from it.