I need more than anything right now what is, of course, most impossible, someone to love me, to be with me at night when I wake up in shuddering horror and fear of the cement tunnels leading down to the shock room, to comfort me with an assurance that no psychiatrist can quite manage to convey.

I am silver and exact.I have no preconceptions.

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my lids and all is born again. (I think I made you up inside my head.) The stars go waltzing out in blue and red, And arbitrary blackness gallops in: I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead. I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane. (I think I made you up inside my head.)

I can't be satisfied with the colossal job of merely living.

I used to pray to recover you.

The one thing I was good at was winning scholarships and prizes, and that era was coming to an end.

I felt the first man I slept with must be intelligent, so I could respect him.