I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life.

What is my life for and what am I going to do with it? I don't know and I'm afraid.

I thought the most beautiful thing in the world must be shadow.

How many different deaths I can die?

I may have made a straight A in physics, but I was panic-struck. Physics made me sick the whole time I learned it.

I am not a historian, but I find myself being more and more fascinated by history and now I find myself reading more and more about history. I am very interested in Napoleon, at the present: I'm very interested in battles, in wars, in Gallipoli, the First World War and so on, and I think that as I age I am becoming more and more historical. I certainly wasn't at all in my early twenties.

My wanting to write books annihilates the original root impulse that would have me bravely and blunderingly working on them.