But when it came right down to it, the skin of my wrist looked so white and defenseless that I couldn't do it.

A skeptic, I would ask for consistency first of all.

What is my life for and what am I going to do with it? I don't know and I'm afraid. I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want.

I want to kill myself, to escape from responsiblity, to crawl abjectly back into the womb.

I feel that very strongly: having been an academic, having been tempted by the invitation to stay on to become a Ph.D., a professor, and all that, one side of me certainly does respect all disciplines, as long as they don't ossify.

A black-sharded lady keeps me in a parrot cage.

There is a certain unique and strange delight about walking down an empty street alone. There is an off-focus light cast by the moon, and the streetlights are part of the spotlight apparatus on a bare stage set up for you to walk through. You get a feeling of being listened to, so you talk aloud, softly, to see how it sounds.