I know the bottom, she says. I know it with my great tap root: It is what you fear. I do not fear it: I have been there.

I am but one more drop in the great sea of matter, defined, with the ability to realize my existence.

I didn't know what I was doing in New York.

I am still raw. I say I may be back. You know what lies are for. Even in your Zen heaven we shan't meet.

That is salvation. To give of love inside. To keep love of life, no matter what, and give to others. Generously.

I am afraid of getting older … I am afraid of getting married. Spare me from cooking three meals a day—spare me from the relentless cage of routine and rote. I want to be free…. I want, I want to think, to be omniscient…. I think I would like to call myself ‘The girl who wanted to be God.

I do not know who I am tonight.