Jesus never consults your past to determine your present.
Forgiveness of sin strikes the root of all pain.
If you decide on your direction, God will give you the energy for the distance.
When satan wants you to cry and you laugh, you defeat him
I have never seen where hatred overcomes love. When you love, you overcome. Love is the most powerful weapon.
For you to have any relationship with God, it must be through His Word by His Spirit.