Really, he could have just punched me in the stomach, because my brain refused to comprehend the words he was saying. A physical assault, it might have understood.

But I'll say this, if what looks like the facts of the matter are conflicting with your feelings, then you need more information before deciding

As for being somewhere you're not supposed to be - maybe you're here for a reason, or there is no reason.

Time would not change what I was feeling--or not feeling. I'd had time, and though the ache from his desertion hadn't disappeared, it was decreasing. My future was blurry, yes, but I was beginning to imagine a future when I would no longer miss him at all.

ME: You 're a sick girl. ERIN: Guilty as charged. :)

I thought about texting Lucas, but what would i say? That I'd tossed and turned all night, thinking of his hands on me?

He's already chasing you. Now all you have to do is keep running. Just not too fast.