How could I not love you? No one has ever affected me like you do. When you told me goodbye last month, I tried to let you go. I told myself it was the best thing for you because you wanted it. But youโre wrong, Dori. Iโm good for you even if you donโt know it yet. I know because Iโve never been good for anyone before.
Tammara WebberThere's something uncontaminated about her, and I don't even mean sexually or whatever. I mean the way she is, at her core. Like when you wake up and the world has been blanketed by snow overnight, and not a single footstep or tire track has spoiled the untouched perfection of it.
Tammara WebberI had to stop linking every single thing that happened to me with Kennedy. Realization dawned then, that he was still my default. Over the past three years, weโd become each otherโs habit. And though heโd broken his habit of me when he walked away, Iโd not broken my habit of him. I was still tethering him to my present, to my future. The truth was, he now belonged only to my past, and it was time I began to accept it, as much as it hurt to do so.
Tammara WebberTonight I want to stand on the side of a cliff and look down, dare the wind to gust and knock me off. Everyone thinks that falling to your death is the worst thing that can happen. But thatโs a lie. The worst thing is to be alive for no reason.
Tammara WebberSomething about first love defies duplication. Before it, your heart is blank. Unwritten. After, the walls are left inscribed and graffitied. When it ends, no amount of scrubbing will purge the scrawled oaths and sketched images, but sooner or later, you find that thereโs space for someone else, between the words and in the margins.
Tammara Webber