To want not to want, you'll tie yourself in knots. So this is why the Tibetans always say, just relax the mind and open.
It's important to lighten up a bit!
Basically, I feel to spend the rest of my life doing retreat.
Some males are intelligent, some are dumb. Some females are intelligent, some are dumb. We're all human beings, no one is superior.
Merit clears away obstacles.
In our endless past lives, we've all done everything, you name it, we've done it. Good, bad, intermediate.