I can't go on flying apart just for those who want the benefit of a few verbal kicks. My God, do you know what poems like that cost? They're not written vicariously: they come out of actual suffering, real madness.
Live in a perpetual great astonishment.
The visible exhausts me. I am dissolved in shadow.
I have gone into the waste lonely places
I came to love, I came into my own.
Pain wanders through my bones like a lost fire