It's cool now to play golf.

I stopped living according to my core values. I knew what I was doing was wrong but thought only about myself and thought I could get away with whatever I wanted to.

I'm going to try to keep getting better.

I was unfaithful, I had affairs, I cheated.

I don't get to live by different rules. The same boundaries that apply to everyone apply to me.

I want to be what I've always wanted to be: dominant.

It's ok to fail. Failing does not shape your personality; it's how you react upon your failure. Do you dust yourself off and mope or do you dust yourself off and come back stronger the next time? Eventually you will win. It may not happen the next time, it may take a little time but you will win in the end.