Sometimes, when I'm alone, I put on six inch heels and wear nothing else and dance around in front of the mirror and do my little stripper dance.

With friends, if you keep making an effort to reach out and you keep getting hurt, you eventually stop trying. But it's much harder to give up on family. Somewhere deep down you want it to work so badly that you keep making the same mistake over and over again.

I'm scared of screwing up my kids.

We chose to do a reality show with my husband Dean McDermott, because we wanted to give the reality of our situation, not to kind of mask it if the things got kind of uncomfortable. So we pretty much put it all out there and I think the viewers will appreciate that.

It would be pretty funny to see a Beverly Hills white girl with mad rap skills.

All it takes is for one person to say you’re ugly, and you’re like, I guess I’m ugly. And that was it.

I'm lucky that I have such a hands on husband.