How can I be a man if there is no role model?

Now the baby's in the trash heap balling.

I finally understand for a woman it ain't easy trying to raise a man.

Maybe in time you'll understand only God can save us.

I'll probably be punished for hard living.

I feel like our future is our confidence and self-esteem.

All I'm trying to do is survive and make good out of the dirty, nasty, unbelievable lifestyle that they gave me.