Why do people want to pretend that death is sleep? It isn't. It isn't.

Sometimes all I want is to be a few inches taller so the world does not look like a dense collection of torsos.

When i get home, I sit on the front step and take deep breaths of the cool spring air for a few minutes. My mother was the one who taught me to steal moments like those, moments of freedom, though she didn't now it. I watched her... But I learned something else from watching her too, which is that the free moments always have to end.

I do know who you are. I just needed to be reminded.

Then everyone can call you Six.” “Four and Six,” I say.

It's when you're acting selflessly that you are at your bravest." --Four in Divergent

I love you," I say. I said that once, before I went to Erudite headquarters, but he was asleep then. I don't know why I didn't say it when he could hear it. Maybe I was afraid to trust him with something so personal as my devotion. Or afraid that I did not know what it was to love someone. But now I think the scary thing was not saying it before it was too late. Not saying it before it was almost too late for me.