I do like to hit people-I like the explosion of power and energy, and the feeling that I am untouchable because I can hurt people. But I hate that part of myself, because it is the part of me that is the most broken

In the days that follow, it's movement, not stillness, that helps to keep the grief at bay.

That our world is so massive that it is completely out of our control, that we cannot possibly be as large as we feel.

And is it selfish of me to crave victory, or is it brave?

People tend to overestimate my character," I say quietly. "They think that because I'm small, or a girl, or a Stiff, I can't possibly be cruel. But they're wrong.

Let the guilt teach you how to behave next time.

But when you kill someone you love, the hard part is never over. It just gets easier to distract yourself from what you've done.