I feel myself acting like a lunatic, but I can't stop. It would be like refusing to breathe.

I have realized that part of being Dauntless is being willing to make things more difficult for yourself in order to be self-sufficient.

One Choice One Choice, decided your friends. One Choice, defines your beliefs. One Choice, determines your loyalties - Forever. ONCE CHOICE CAN TRANSFORM YOU

It was him or me. I chose me. But I feel dead too.

But when you kill someone you love, the hard part is never over. It just gets easier to distract yourself from what you've done.

All I want is to become someone new. In this case, Tobias Johnson, son of Evelyn Johnson. Tobias Johnson may have lived a dull and empty life, but he is at least a whole person, not this fragment of a person that I am, too damaged by pain to become anything useful.

Sometimes I see him as just another person, and sometimes I feel the sight of him in my gut, like a deep ache.