I think I realized early on that my family wasn't like other families.

I would lay awake nights and cry a lot thinking, is my dad gonna come home? Is he gonna go to jail again? Is he going to get killed?

Prosecutors say my father was the biggest crime boss in the nation... If you really want to know what John Gotti was like, you need to talk to my family. We lived this life.

My existence was never a Francis Ford Coppola existence.

The public saw my father right out of central casting. He looked the part, acted the part... he was the part! The real life Godfather.

You feel it in there, pacing your heart sometimes, and it has what's called a defibrillator. Should I suffer that arhythmia, it's generally sudden death. And the paddles that are internal shock you back and restore your rhythm to its normal and natural state.

I think I realized early on that my family wasn't like other families.