Can you join, ask sincerely for affection without sweaty hand of expectation, understanding and accepting if it never is given?

You can't really go back to where you came from. I don't think any of us can.

Most actors can't make any kind of living.

If you daren't enter the forest, or cannot find it, then perhaps you might find one tree, or a place where a tree could be, and just stop for a quiet moment to see what happens.

It's almost a standard tactic, really, to try to minimize any effort that people in the entertainment business or in any public occupation make to express themselves.

You don't have to make something that people call art. Living is an artistic activity, there is an art to getting through the day.

I'm not afraid of death, but I resent it. I think it's unfair and irritating.