Be gentle and forgiving with yourself, abandon any and all shame, and refuse to engage in any self-repudiation.
In the context of eternity, time doesn't matter.
Albert Einstein once reported, "Great spirits have always encountered voilent opposition from mediocre minds." If you want to achieve your own greatness, to climb your own mountains, you'll have to use yourself as your first and last consultant.
We have to overcome our societal conditioning which says we are unworthy.
If you have anything in your heart other than love, you've got to get it out.
The fact that you are willing to say, 'I do not understand, and it is fine,' is the greatest understanding you could exhibit.