Ryles and I were looking around at the calibre of players in this side, you do think ... you are very lucky to be here. Especially with Jesus, Andrew Johns, we call him Jesus, isn't even here yet.

The media character-assassinated me and perceived me as this monster. When you look at my record ... I jumped a taxi as a 21-year-old, which I'm sorry for, and I urinated twice in public. That's in 11 years of football. I've never assaulted women and never been done for drink driving. My conscience is clear.

It's a bit disappointing when board members who don't know a thing about football are making decisions on your career. When you look at it you've got coaches, senior players and CEO's who wanted me but then it gets to a board meeting and you've got fat businessmen who are making the decision on your career. It was frustrating and it made me a bit angry.

I've been flogging myself to keep my fitness up there.

Its like a Contiki tour, getting on and off buses, getting pissed.

Ryles and I were looking around at the calibre of players in this side, you do think ... you are very lucky to be here. Especially with Jesus, Andrew Johns, we call him Jesus, isn't even here yet.