This so-called fame or being better off doesn't really attract me at all.
It is not an easy job to govern China, I am aware of that.
Self-censorship is insulting to the self. Timidity is a hopeless way forward.
Even if I have hundreds of things to do, the disconnected feeling is still there because it is very hard to find a real purpose of life.
My childhood was quite extreme. Sometimes I was so weak I could not stand up. But now I am so strong. Life is unpredictable
I have to find a place for my own. I have to search for my own happiness.